Why you still mean so damn much to me. It’s been 2 years, and I still feel the exact same way I felt since we were together. I don’t understand how someone can stay on my mind and in my heart for so long. I don’t recall a single time when something didn’t remind me of you, or a time when I’m not thinking of the times when we were so happy together.. It seems so unreal that I would even see your name on my phone again.. I mean don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy that we’re on speaking terms. But there’s always that painful thought that we won’t talk again for a long time. Although our conversations are short and small, I cherish them as if it’ll be the last time we’ll ever talk.
I just don’t understand. It’s been so long. I’ve been with other people, I’ve tried to move on. But I always end up back where I started, which is wishing I was still with you. Damn. Thinking back, the feeling of love that I discovered with you, I will never be able to feel that way again for or with somebody else. And that scares me so much.. to know that I will never be as happy in a relationship as when I was with you. You meant the world to me. It hurts even more to know that I’m the only one stuck with all the memories. I’m back at the same place where we built our relationship, I have all of our pictures and videos.. I can’t even sleep in my own room without feeling haunted by our memories. I don’t know why I still love you so much.
I’ve been holding this in for so long. I guess I felt it was time to put it out somewhere since you’ve been on my mind a little more than usual lately.
I know you’re probably lowkey hurting about your own problems lately, but just know that if you ever need someone to talk to, if you ever need anything, I’ll be there.
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